1988.
i was 16 at ADF.
this solo by molissa fenley rocked my entire dancing brain/body.
the world premiere of state of darkness.
this is a restaging. the original video footage isn’t online for free anymore.
State of Darkness from Molissa Fenley on Vimeo.
i do remember it though. i remember her. i remember falling deeply and irreversibly in love with her and the dancing.
now i know it’s because i wanted to be her and the dancing.
i wanted to love myself as much as i loved her and the dancing.
i didn’t even know what “Le Sacre du Printemps” was and didn’t until years later.
i still move like this.
i still try to make this dance.
she terrified me. she thrilled me.
i’m going to remember this as i’m making this new dance.
it will come in handy.
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